trip with frens?

wow...it has been a while since i update this....really laz to update this cauz too many thing in mind...many thing has happen since my last blogging...my study is actually still as bad as my last result..but to me i think that as long i got the concept..i will actually do well in my exam..Xp...but maybe i am thinking wrongly...maybe because of my naiveness that my result is actually like this..haihz...but never mind about that though..Xp..what is the past just leave it as the past..look towards to the future..Xp


i wonder though...cauz today i was actually goin mountain hiking wif my 2ndar school friends.. and now i was wondering should i ask my best fren to do me a favour...

this sucks

do I have an option here?! Take and fail or don’t take get nag…. Many times that I have try doing my worst subject ever and yet nothing good ever came out….. I was like dam it…please let me drop this bloody stupid subject….is not my dream to have this subject…if not because it do not have any more space for psychology, I would have not take this subject… stupid counselor…. Stupid newton…. Because of him and some other stupid fellows like kirchoff blah blah blah, this subject won’t even exist…. YES I AM COMPLAINING ABOUT PHYSICS….

To me, I think because I have spend some time in physics as well, had causes me valuable time to study my other important subject…. Because of thinking about physics, makes me lose my concentration in my other subject…. Those 6 hours in class should be able to use as revision for my biology, chemistry and maths….

Moreover, now the stupid head of department in college want to make thinking skill be optional for us.. now is the start of june and now only you tell it is optional?! What shit is this?! We have like use more than 60 hours of our life to study this and now they sat it is optional?! They should have say it long before we start our college life…. Because of some thinking skill teacher is going, you are making it optional?! Stupid people….no brainer… and among all the time they have to tell us yesterday… and want our reply whether we want to drop by tomorrow….I mean what the hell?! No chance to really think about it much?! And our exam is next week….. this stupid people…PLEASE USE YOUR BLOODY BRAIN…. O WAIT.. I forgot… YOU DON’T HAVE 1….useless people…..JUST DIE SOMEWHERE WE COUND NOT SEE YOU…. ESPECIALLY TO MY MALAYSIAN STUDY TEACHER….. AM I A GIRL TO YOU?! Stupid ***…. There is even a guy from my class call me ‘cute’…. I think that’s far off… I am very pissed…AH!!!!...

On the bright side though, I got my psp from my dad as a spm gift… and next week is EXAM….. that’s the suck part….as what I can see from all my test, I can hardly score… what’s wrong with me dam it…..T

its finally over!!!!

It’s finally over…. Bye Bye to our little moral and HELLO to Malaysian studies…another boring subject is coming but luckily is next semester… today the moral test is actually surprisingly easy…they say that there is an essay to do but in an hour, what can we achieve?! But luckily there is no essay but what we read have not come out.. Not even 1.. We were actually lucky that we ask our mentor about hindu’s festival before we got into the exam hall… in the exam hall, it was creepy.. Why?! It was super quite as time start to tick when we start our test…tick, tick, tick, for each tick a second is over, and for every hand move, an answer was given in the paper. Whether it is right or wrong is up to the lecturers…. It felt like silence before the war, as it start to rain outside, that’s when the war started… as people start to rush out to the open area without an umbrella….

Today, I watch American idol..OMG!! the 1 I am supporting is awesome….AWESOME…. SCOTTIE, SCOTTIE..  when u ever stop to amaze me…  not just me but the people who are supporting you, your voice is so low that make people to be drowse in your voice.. it is AMAZING… tomorrow is the day to know whether he got into the final…please do so…. Then the final battle will be very nice…

The saying goes, TIME FLIES WHEN YOU ARE HAVING FUN…. And that’s what I am thinking right now… cause now is already mid may and I am not ready for my semester test..yet I am still here blogging… what a useless person I am..TT…. well..i think I will stop blogging until after me test….

People in my class are calling me branime… y?! because I watch a lot of Japanese cartoons….. also known as ANIME… till now I actually can’t stop watching anime..right now I am chasing a manga series call nurarihyon no mago..means the grandson of the nurarihyon…. This is actually a nice manga as it talks about monsters in Japan and a 12 year old kid become a leader to lead his clan to protect his territory… 

my favourite anime is rozen maiden.. this show is about 7 dolls fighting to become ALICE which mean perfection for them…2 of my favourite character in the show is suisenseki and sousenseki..they are twin sister dolls and each of them have their unique ability…….

rumors

There　has been lots rumors

Lately….this particular rumor has been spread since the time where the underground train started to be used

Long ago, there is 1 husband and wife, they took a suitcase and rode on a train, at the time 4:40pm, they left it in the train and when the train conductor open the case, what they found is most stunning, it was a dead baby girl…

According to this myth, the soul of the girl grew up to be a young teenage girl. Once that happen, the rumor starts. They say that the girl will go back to the trains to search for herself. She will sit there and wait 4 an answer to come out. She waited and waited until she can’t wait no more, she started to show herself. Everyday at the time of 4:40pm,she will show herself to people who can see her. She will try to tease you by lifting up her skirt and acting sad. If the person saw and do anything which related to her, she will ask:

Girl: you can see me?! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA…..

Welcome..to the station of no return

can you find me? Can you find where is my real self?! Can you do it?! Can you help me find in this dreadful room?! (chuckle)

In this room, thousand of lockers are present and only one of them is her. In this room, there are many vines which came out from no where and will block the lockers. For each locker the person picked, there will be a body part inside which is moving and is it is a head, well, screams of pain and joy will echo the place.

I shall give you 44 second to find my real self… or else…(chuckle) you shall be my playmate and stay here for all eternity

(44 second later)

Seems like you can’t find me, like the other failures I have capture and kill… now arise my playmates, you now have a new friends..hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

And here where the rumor stop. Shall it continue? No 1 will know what truly happen once you gotten into the station of no return...

why is people come and go?!

Why people always come and go?! Right now….some of my friends got scholarship from our government.. and this is what they have said:

WENG MING: who got scholarship?!

WEI WEI: why u got?!

WENG MING: ya…will take it…cause straight go to UK..

EVERYONE: Don’t go…if u go we will miss u

WENG MING: I will miss u all too…TT…. So Shaun plan a trip and I so I can have some fun with all of u people…

SHAUN: WHAT?! Ok la..eh?! people who want go to Singapore?! Tell me by Wednesday

Few weeks ago our thinking skill teacher(ms Fiona ) said that she is resigning as a teacher and search for a new job….we of course were surprise and start to ask question, she said is time for me to move on to find another job as women at age of 35 can’t change their job no more, so I will b moving on and find a new job just for fun…worst come to worst I will stay back to being a teacher…right now an editing company has an eye on me so I might be accepting it…maybe only..but reassigning is confirm ..already got the permission from the headmaster..so will be teaching u guys until end of this semester and I am off…

Now she has already sure that she want to be reassigning, there is no stopping her..we will just stay at a side and wish her the best of luck…..

my granma

i mean wow...look at the person above....though she has been living 4 many years yet she is able to do that...

IT IS AMAZING

2 weeks ago,my mother have plan a party for my granma (person above) as mother's day present...that night it was another wonderful night as most of my mother side family members are there including us..haha...it was actually a memorable memory especially for my granma who have been living there alone for few month before my aunt move in..that day,it maybe her best day of her life because she can do anything she wants without any restrictions from any of us..most of the time she was not allowed to eat meat...y? no idea..just chinese believes....they say that if you eat meat after 90 years old,you will die quickly or something like that.....her age has already passed 90 yet she still can do lots of things except anything that require her to move...

around the year 1980's,she have stroke and barely survive...in the end she survive and still healthy..haha....i mean look at her,she is drinking CASBERG..she is drinking a beer..when she first taste it,her face got so bitter that she look away from us and telling us it is very bitter,everyone laugh...

o granma

,let me just tell u that without you,there won't be mother and aunts or uncle, there won't be us...

so I AM HERE TO SAY,

谢谢您老人家，

没有你，我们都不会在这世上。

没有你，我们没办法孝顺你。

没有你，这世上就没有一个是好人。

sometimes...

sometimes i wonder...hm... what should i do for the day? no homework..nothing to do at home...facebook is boring....watching video sometimes also boring...anime boring....so i listen songs...i ask people to suggest me some song to hear but what i get is the result that i don't like...not 1 bit...actually not the songs..but the person singing it..it was remarkably wrong...cause now he is 19 yet he look like a 13 year old boy.... yes,that's right..is JUSTIN BIEBER...i actually like his song but not the person because of the few reason below

1. he is too cute 4 me to see

2. jealous of him cause he is able to be rich and have many girls chasing him

3. he look so so young..also envy cause he can hardly to be seen as old

for a long time i have not been listening to the recent songs, mostly the song i hear is from games japanese cartoons etc..i think i should listen back? Of course with the help of my friends i think i will be able to catch up what i have miss 4 these past few years... 

In May 14th,i will be performing in my music school,well i just join back in the school,anyway, yes i will be performing my electone skill there. will be performing Thriller by king of pop Micheal Jackson.. how i hope that i won't get stage fright during that day..T.T.. according to my teacher,she say that her student who went 4 performance,they have no problem of doing their presentation or projects in school or college....i really wish that this may help me..I use to sing when i was at the age of  11 and 12...that time still a bit shy..i still remember my BM teacher was shocked after listen what i have sung that day..really epic..though my mom can't take picture cause she's not there..T.T....

sometimes i feel like this

i am invaded by you

each time we touch i crumble

with each kiss i am destroyed

bodied fused,blended.melted

our bodies connect over and over again

so many times, over and over..

bodies glued together by the fluids staining us

we just continue seeking pleasure

you know it don't you?

this feeling of mine

i want to immerse myself...in you

as if being completely taken over

I want more and more of you

really..i really want my old friends....the time we spend together is fun laughable sometime is horrifying..T.T still,miss the old days of mine..really hope that time can be turn back,turn to the way it was,before everything it even started..where we are still friends..and not strangers...T.T

most epic trip EVER

GENTING.......WOOHOO......It is so much fun when u go with friends...especially with these bunch of crazy people above

left to right:

top>james , jessie , wen lee , mun yee , tiger , amelia, ashwin

2nd row>wee min , shaun, luqman , me , poon suan zen , brandon loo

3rd row?! >jason

7th of april was SOO.... EPIC....it is worth to be remembered.... the whole day...we have been screaming from ride to rides.....after we place our bag in our rooms...we went down to the theme park and there was not much people....as it is not the peak season.which means NO LINES...haha...the first ride they got on to is the deadliest , most frightening ride in the whole universe......IT WAS........the merry-go-round ....there were 3 to 4 years old kids yet our group  were "screaming"... the children were looking at them with so many curious eyes.....hahaha

the next ride was a small roller coaster and we scream....JAMES FACE WAS SO FUNNY AND TOO BAD THERE S NO PICTURE.....he was actually praying there while shouting...haha...everyone's face was on the right track as they scream and scream and scream beside 1 WEIRD FELLOW NAME ASHWIN...he has no emotion at all..none...no matter which ride he is on...there is no emotion on his face...not 1....it was plain...that is creepy..haha...but he is a good fellow....Xp

after that is the water splash ride...5 people was not going in because they do not have extra shirt or some other reason...we were separated to 3 group when we got onto this ride.....

1st group>wee min, tiger , wen lee

2nd>jessie , jason , amelia

3rd>me, brandon loo , poon

the person who got wettest within this ride is wee min, poon and (jason?) not very sure bout the last 1....anyway...we were all soaked except me...ME..i wish i was wet...TT....o well..cant do anything bout it anyway...then we went and dry off by sitting on the spinning ride(no idea what it is call)......and most of us were dried except poon...he was super wet....poor guy..

anyway..4 most of the ride we ride...we were all shouting and screaming...lol....got 1 ride every1 in our gang shouted A.........SHUK !!!! wen lee was hitting every1 with her bottle..it was epic...haha.....after that it was around 7pm..shaun and mun yee (couple) went  back to the room while we were playing the last ride....then we remembered that shaun birthday was coming while mun yee is just over....

tiger: lets go get cake...

brandon loo: shouldn't we separate so that some can stall and some go buy the cakes

tiger: no..like that will be even more suspicious...when he call every1 don't answer his phone

every1:ok

then we go and hunt our cake...it was baskin robin...OMFG 1 CAKE IS RM99 AND IS WAS VERY VERY SMALL.....and so we bought it and start going back to our rooms.... we were all worried as there is a high possibility that we might meet them at the elevator....it was so...scary 

we put the cake into the fridge and went out for dinner...after that is bowling..the place was nice as is was disco night....it was beautiful...even the bowling pins are glowing...finally back to the rooms.....we were playing uno cards and poon turn off the light and open the door....everyone started to sing...happy birthday

we were singing 4 the couple and mun yee was shock..so as shaun....they have no clue on what is going on until we finish the song....suddenly, some1 shouted....KISS KISS............ we all followed and the couple were too shy to do it...that is until we finish the cake...shaun kiss on the cheek and we were asking for a reply from mun yee to shaun......she was still shy....o well...can't force her... then it was game time...truth or dare.....

shaun start 1st by choosing dare....we all dare him to sing a song to mun yee with all his heart and soul...it was beautiful although there is some voice broke at some part and luqman was laughing all the way...no 1 is perfect...haha...then it goes on and no 1 dare to choose dare...i was complaining and i chose it...at first they wan me to make out with myself by kissing the mirror,but mercy was given (i think),they call me to kiss poon's forehead for 10 second..and i did it...poon straight went to the toilet to wash it....every1 is tired as that time is already 2 midnight..we all went back to our rooms and ZZZ

the next day we went to the arcade to help shaun to get mun yee a teddy bear without her noticing...it was quite ok as there is still a lot of people there....o well...after that we went to get our bags and we move out again...before ending the trip....tiger nearly forgot to bring her 'best friend' out from the rooms....she was freak out and went back to take it..luckily it was found...haha....then it was the end of the trip..was tiring but fun...hope can do this again with theis bunch of  CRAZY people

WOOHOO

YAHOO.......finally...the time is over...doomsday have pass and i am still alive....it is time to celebrate..but unfortunately i have no1 to celebrate with...all my x classmate are having different time 4 recess..it is a sad story...today something SUPER WEIRD THING HAD HAPPEN.....DEENA HAS NOT TALK 4 THE WHOLE DAY....OMG!!!...mostly u can hear her laughing and talking to her best friends>racheal and wei wei....but today....SHE WAS VERY QUITE ..EXTREMELY QUITE..i wonder what has gone into her....i want to ask her but the look of her face says that she won't talk even i force her..so i left her be...but it was weird as there is no sound at the back beside wei wei's laugh and the gossipers....


this reminds me of something...I HATE GOSSIPERS....they always talk talk talk and talk but all talking bout other people and not themselves...this is irritating....and everytime they start to talk the whole class actually like a pasar..please people..some people actually wanted to study...CONTROL YOUR VOLUME....I ACTUALLY WANT A BIT OF QUITE TIME TO STUDY......I DON'T MIND THAT YOU GUYS TALK NON STOP..BUT PLEASE JUST LOWER DOWN YOUR VOICE PEOPLE...it is really annoying...I KNOW YOU PEOPLE ARE SMART...BUT I AM NOT...I AM TRYING TO LEARN IN PEACE....


anyway,,that just ruin my mood..but after the 2 periods today...i was relief as my test is actually over...BIO TEST...OMG....THE PRESSURE EXERTED BY MY LECTURER IS SO HIGH THAT I WAS ACTUALLY FELT AFRAID...OMG....is actually like i am in a sauna..where the pressure is actually high...TT...


tomorrow there is a physics lesson in college...OMG...i don't want to go....but my mom force me to go because it is important and she paid for it..LOL...why pharmacy need physics....I DON'T WANT TO GO AS I HAVE AM ACTUALLY BORED WHEN STUDYING PHYSICS.....ZZZ.... i even say some people sleeping...and tomorrow is 3 hours...3 HOURS DAMMIT....is hell 4 me....why did i take physics in the first place....TT....


yesterday...when i was having lunch with my friends,i think i said something wrong that i upset wei wei....the place that we eat has a waitress that really have a loud and irritating voice...always say hi and bye to everyone outside and inside the restaurant....OMG.......is soo...... irritating....that time i said is just like wei wei....then she glare at me...i felt scare..like a little puppy looking at a fierce dog..TT...that scary look i shall hope that i will never see it again.....however,that day i found something very interesting that able to IRRITATE THE OTHER BRANDON...hahaha....but i shall not expose that thing out..is too creepy....

feeling off again

today i am feeling a bit off again..i have no idea why..have this itchy feeling in my heart saying that something is wrong...is it because that i nearly skip moral to search a book that cant be found in the campus?! I wonder....before that i am worry as well as this morning I have been called to answer a question from my bio lecturer due to my big mouth.....as for every answer that we cant get,he will call us to stand for the whole period..and i nearly got that punishment. But GOD is beside me today....so i am feeling better after that...that feeling has not been in my heart since i was in standard 2....the feeling to cry.....this particular feeling has a bit of feeling from fear,terror,and have no idea how to answer a question...this feeling is the worst as it make me weak and scared that i will be call again for the next question....ever since that,i was very quite and scared....what if the lecturers ask us too much question for A person..will they chase us out from the class? will they have even worst punishment than throwing us from the class? These question has been pop up in my head for sometimes..... after my college,i went back home with that feeling..

during that time,my mom ask me lots of question with many uncertainty in my mind....what should i study after A-level? where should i go after this? i have no goal in mind except playing to music and feel nature.....my cousin have already decide on what he suppose to do with the help of his parents....TT.....i felt scared...what is the future lies in front of me...what is the reason that i am alive...what is my fate?! in class i felt i have no communication with my classmate much...is it really because that without the knowledge from the outside world i cant communicate with them? or am i just too old fashioned to anything on what they say.....i felt hopeless and lonely...to be alone in the darkness is a very scary thing...as hallucination will float around  when you are careless.....the scariest thing among all is no 1 is there beside you....not even a single living things..only darkness...is a scary feeling.....someone help me...please...really scared

will there be light in my life?! will i have friends?! that will try stay beside me when i am in trouble?! my dad said to me once...

IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE,YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A SINGLE FRIEND..WHO HAVE BEEN WITH YOU THEY WILL LEAVE YOU 1 DAY

this is really a scary thing to hear...i dun wan to be alone...not again...i dun wan to be alone..please..TT...i beg for mercy....i dun wan that feeling again....if that happen again...let me have a silent death...there is no point of living if there is no friends to share with...even though families are people as well but they are only helpful to a certain extension....i dun wan to trap into darkness again...please...TT..someone show me the way out from the abyss...the feeling is unbearable..is actually mental torture....someone end it for me by cursing me or kill me...just do something to end my torture...(crying and shouting)


LET ME OUT...LET ME OUT FROM THE DARKNESS...I DUN WAN TO STAY IN HERE ANYMORE...PLEASE..LET ME OUT..LET ME SEE THE LIGHT THAT PEOPLE SAY IS WARM...PLEASE...(SHOUTING and sitting at a corner crying)

to do or not to do:thats the question

SHAKESPEARE VERION
To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action. - Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remember'd.

MY VERSION

to do or not to do; that is the question,

whether this biology should be in my mind to suffer,

the DNA and RNA of the outrageous knowledge,

or to know the structure of the plant which is troublesome,

just to destroying yourself..TO DIE for eternal slumber

no more; and by sleep to say we end

the heart-ache like a thousand shock that we have

that blood is heir to; this is just coincidence

destroyed by wish: to die; to sleep

to sleep; purchase comfy bed and we will dream

for in that comfy nap,what nightmare we will have

when we have got through the unbelievable nightmare

must wake up so we can move on

thats makes us a person to live

for who would bare these nightmare beside us

 parents no,only ourself able to overcome

the fangs that lie in us no one will know

the insolence of the traitors and the people to their leader

the victims cries on their unworthy death

when the leader did nothing but to protect himself

with his army? life will be perish

the only road that has not been touch

only able to be seen after dying

which puzzle us,whether where we will go to

thus cowards we become and says nonsense

with that we rise,to bear the life passed by

so that lives have passed shall not be thrown aside

for their sacrifices,the country shall be safe

for their love ones; they will fight

to everyone that we suppose to care

shall be the last that we will care

as life pass on for what we have done

tomorrow will come without a doubt

so be strong to live and cry

the consequences is not a crime

as 1 long live,thou shall be care

to care to nag is a mothers job

for what our mother earth tries to do

we ignore it just for our pleasure

thus cause mother to be angry at us

by causing earthquake tsunami and volcanic eruption

life for us as we known will be gone

so let us keep our mother happy 

by recycle reuse the garbage we have used

with that I shall end my poem

hope that people will understand

for i wrote this poem not for comfort or nothing to do

but to care and to sleep with a peaceful night

as people dies in everyday life

some dies with an unworthy death

thus pray for peace and safety for other country

for 1 day we shall achieve

PEACE will be the one we shall after

complains....

today i am very happy but sad as well....why?! I am happy because i did my experiments correctly today but some of the experiments results are a bit off...T.T..... haihz...what to do when u did not prepare properly....O WELL....thats was my 1st complain.....

2nd complain is when we are choosing the BIO class representative and assistant....i was sad because they chose both brandon and they just pick me as the assistant representative just to save time and voice it was sad...every1 say that should be a girl representative but instead they chose me....what the say?!

TIGER(dun knw the girl real name)> BECAUSE YOU ARE A GIRL MA....

TT...really sad...cause people think me as a girl...am i like 1?? why do I always ask question to myself... my sis thinks that i am crazy cause i am speaking to myself everytime......i mostly on the computer which makes me a bit out of shape and not knowing what happen to the outside world.....this is bad i know but only computer and some of my close friends able to comfort me.....some make jokes some make confession bout their love life to me....i feel like i am a love doctor..haha.....but truthfully i do not want to be a 'love doctor'  because there is too much things to do in life and some stupid fellow can't control their love life....is really irritating sometimes to see some1 who have break up with their bf/gf and ask me for advises....this is really annoying to be exact...

3rd complain i got is my closest friend who use to be shorter than me but suddenly puberty strike him.....now he is around my height...though i am happy for him because now nobody can call him shorty anymore...(chuckle) HOWEVER,when i let him read my blog...he start to complain to me...WHY AM I NOT THERE 1?!....ZZZ....he is not there means he is not there la....why come find me for....haha...i was actually hoping that he can get more As than me but fate screw as all again..haha....for him BASKETBALL is everything...

4th complain....wow i can't believe i got so many complains.....well...no i don't.....i remembered something from the past....when i was in primary school i was a cry baby which makes me the most LOSER boy in the class....but thanks to the girls in my class and some boys i was able to live a happy childhood...i am glad that i am alive.....i remember i saw weng ming somewhere before.... he was 1 of the top class student and he was 1 of the basketball player? i dun remember bout that...

i felt like writing an essay..bout my life..haha....well they guy that complain in my 3rd complain is yap yee heng....he is actually a 'smart' boy at attracting hot chicks because he has his secret weapon....DIMPLE....THE MOST POWERFUL WEAPON FOR A BOY TO ATTRACT GIRLS.....he is also cute bet not as cute as a panda.....even though he has 'black eyes'....he is not a playboy but like to look at girl andwithout movement....SO GIRLS IN THE WORLD NO NEED TO BE SCARE AND JUST GO AND PINCH HIS FACE...HAHA...

but we can't always look back to the past....everything ends mean is the new beginning with a new life and a new adventure...(chuckle)

missing it

i felt something off today...not from college but from something else...something that i am missing and will never return no matter how hard i try to obtain it.....it was my school life....when i glanced back into the past,it make me wanna cry....all the best memory happen in high school.....i still remember when i was in form 3.....is was the first time that i snap and chase an indian fellow (THAMIL) around the school....he was really an irritating person who will never control his itchy hand....even though i always bring a weapon to school just to scare him but it was pointless...(chuckle) well in the end the ruler went missing..o well...it has serve its purpose..... from that day onwards,he never bother me much again because i can snap anytime.....during that time,every1 in my class told me to control myself....thats the 1st and the last time i snap in school or class....everything must have patients....thats what my dad always says...

Dad>CONTROL YOUR TEMPERE OR I AM GOIN TO WOLAP YOU THEN YOU KNOW

after that time,my temper has becoming more peaceful..is it because of meditation i always do or just my friends who always been wif me since form 1.....right now he is still my best friend and we have become 'brothers'..... 5 years together and i never thank him properly for taking care of me....not even a treat.....(chuckle)..feeling a bit sad cause i can't do anything 4 him but he did so much 4 me... during form 5.....he kena denggi.....and was hospitalize....after a few days i only know what happen to him....am i that useless??? i din't even know that he got that until the last day of his absent...but he still recover...thank GOD to that...bless him always..Xp

soon is the last day of school....GRADUATION...the person to my left is my brother.... EDWARD .....he might not look like it but he is a smart fellow...who actually did better than me...haha....i was actually hoping that he will get straight As so that he can get a scholarship and won't touble his mom on further studying but fate is cruel.... his parents was devorce and was living with his mom....his mom was a good person who care and love him and his brother....i was actually happy 4 them as they are 1 good family....was hoping my sis was like his brother...eventhough they fight but will not see eac other temper....the last day of school is making me sad because i am not going to see my brother after i have taken my spm result.....last time is was everyday but now is rare...feel a bit off

right now i am in college while he is working his butt off...(chuckle) here i meet new friends who are funny caring and most importantly........FUN..... example

DEENA>A GIRL WHO LIKE TORRES VERY MUCH JUSTIN BIEBER LOVER TOO

WENG MING>DANCER IN OUR CLASS...EVERYTHING IS BOUT DANCING

WEE MIN> KIND..WON'T BLAME PEOPLE MUCH

RACHEL> WIERD PERSON AS SHE DOES NOT LIKE MILK

WEI WEI>LOUDMOUTH

JAMES> 'LIKE' WENG MING AND IRRITATES HIM A LOT

SHAUN>NO IDEA WHAT TO COMMENT BOUT HIM

BRANDON LOO>MENTAL ATTACKER...ABLE TO DESTROY A PERSON MIND WITHOUT TOUCHING HIM OR HER

and etc etc...

these people are good people...they can't be describe with words at all...i just hope they won't be like my last classmate who always like to touch people 4 no reason..haha...well...b off...another day another memory to store in my mind..hope will have a good day tomorrow...XP...

results?

i feel a bit of since yesterday....y? bcauz ppl keep reminding me of the worst thing that ever happen to us...SPM...the feeling is so wrong that i cant feel wats rit n wrong..i knw that sentence is stupid....but wat to do...i am stupid....anyway...i been watching show to calm my nerve but my fren keep bugging me in msn n always remind me of that...EVEN THE RADIO IS REMINDING ME....Y LA?!...to watch the same show all over agn is making me crazy...CRAZY I TELL U....but wat to do the feeling will come anyway....

the next day..IT IS FINALLY HERE.....THE TIME HAS COME TO MEET MY DOOM S TIME PAZ..... 4 each second paz i feel like the reaper is near my neck wif its deadly scythe...w8ing to bhead me....

1030am> i hav reach at my skul.....evli1 is w8ing thr,,some came wif a smile..some came wif a anxious look....some even worst....DEAD LOOK....like me... haha...

1045 am> my frens are here...we chat we talk we laugh like we use to be but thr is a slight different....WE R ALL HAVING DIFFERENT LOOKS IN OUR FACE.....however...1 of my closest fren try something new...

ASHWIN: i am trying the sms system c its works or not.....i hope it does not.....(after a few min) OMG!!! My result.....OMG!! I GOT 7A+ AND 2 A?! I DUN BLIV THIS...OMG!!

EVLI1>WOW....CONGRATS ASHWIN CONGRATZ....

1100am>THE TIME HAS COME....THE MOMENT OF TRUTH....we all waited at my skuls hall until the teacher arrive but we w8ed a few minutes.....still GOD CAME.....she 1st say something really boring b4 giving us our results like take ur magazine etc etc....but we still get our result..... MY GOSH...THE FEW MINUTES FEELS LIKE MELLENIUM ...... the feeling is unbearable but i got my result.....

in the end, my brain is saying>spm....finished......result..........taken...how is it?...bad....how do i feel?......sad.....y? bcauz my bio is bad.....how bad was it?.....amazingly surprisingly bad....y do u feel that?...bcauz the EXAMINER MARKING is bad