sometimes i wonder wat i'm really am.
i always wonder wat should i really do
n wat is my purpoz in life..... after my aunt paz away i'm unable to feel real happinez
i always felt like i wan to cry but i am unable to cry y is it???



sometimes i wish i wasnt alive i wish to switch places wif all the ppl who died in haidi
thoz ppl r innocent........... n i am the 1 who is guilty.... i wonder y do i live 4?? wats the point 4 me to live if i dun hav a motiv in life..... my uncle said live evryday to its fullest however i felt like i was trap in a cell n nvr able to c sunlight..... i always feel sorrow n guilt til now...

when i was younger i felt piz n hit my granma in her chest n due to that she was hurt....y does this happen?? y am i so stgupid n unable to hepl the person that i lov n care. is this mean that my life is unable to lov??? i wish i can hav some guidanz n some1 who is precious to me that i can protect.......i wan to b strong.... i wan to protect the ppl i lov n care but i wish i could xcape death... y??? y all thez need to b happen? y ppl muz die?? Y????